"How to Escape Insanity" Chapter 6: Energy Energy: Your Infinite Supply

Using a dragon for energy
Let's find your dragon
A "scientific" test for your dragon root energy
Think of yourself as an empowering person?
Think of yourself as manipulative and you are totally fine with that?
Think of yourself as manipulative but don't like that?
Concerns about how people see you

“Rage — whether in reaction to social injustice, or to our leaders’ insanity, or to those who threaten or harm us — is a powerful energy that, with diligent practice, can be transformed into fierce compassion.”
― Bonnie Myotai Treace

"Pride, professionalism, teamwork, and respect."
 ― Firefighter motto

“It's discouraging to think how many people are shocked by honesty and how few by deceit.”
― Noël Coward, Blithe Spirit

"How long, O LORD? Will You be angry forever? Will Your jealousy burn like fire?"
 ― Psalm 79:5

“Fear doesn't shut you down; it wakes you up”
― Veronica Roth, Divergent

“Don't be afraid of your fears. They're not there to scare you. They're there to let you know that something is worth it.”
― C. JoyBell C.

“I read a lot. I always have, but in those two years I gorged myself on books with a voluptuous, almost erotic gluttony. I would go to the local library and take out as many as I could, and then lock myself in the bedsit and read solidly for a week.”
― Tana French, In the Woods

“Powerless=lifeless.”
― Bangambiki Habyarimana, Pearls Of Eternity

“I've heard that hard work never killed anyone, but I say why take the chance?”
― Ronald Reagan

“Lazy people, the truly lazy people live on information, strategies, ideas, plans and many other criticals, simply to spend one hour of hard work and make the rest feel like a breeze.”
― Alan Rios






Chapter 6 of “How to Escape Insanity” by Chris Macnab

OK, escaping is hard work.  You need a source of energy.  If you just try to "will" yourself to follow the techniques in this book, you will get tired out quickly and just head back to bed.  Willpower is fine for resisting things, but not so good for doing things.  You need a source of energy that will provide you with limitless resources when facing any possible obstacles, no matter how big or how many or how long they last.

Our energy source is our desire to rebel against the unfairness of the universe, and all the terrible people in it that have done things to us.   It's the emotion of our internal rebellion.  OK, that probably sounds pretty good so far.   But now we get to the part that some of you will not like - the energy source is what we see as 'bad' about ourselves.  Although this idea of 'bad' feelings may have been drilled into you by family and culture, the good news is that the whole idea that you can have a  'bad' feeling is only an opinion.   It's actually just fine to use it as a source of energy;  because this energy gets filtered through your head, your thinking processes can make sure that the actual outcomes in the real world turn out to be nice or constructive or beneficial or whatever the 'good' thing is you desire for yourself and others.  Thus, the techniques described in this chapter will in no way will prevent you from being a 'good' person to others.   I was furiously angry writing this book.  Could you tell?  What if this book saves a few or many people from insanity, would I have ever have to justify to anyone why I wrote it using anger as an energy source?

If you do find yourself wanting to actually cause harm to yourself or others or cause any kind of destruction, then stop; you have not done enough healing yet and you have to back to Steps 1, 2 and 3.  Also, this is not at all the same as having an evil demon inside you telling you to cause harm to yourself or others.  If you have one of those, stop; you have to go back to steps 2 and 3 and do more healing.   

If you are comfortable thinking of yourself as deliciously evil, or a bad-ass, or a powerful bitch, or something along those lines, then you will be able to use this energy this pretty easily.  But if you are very uncomfortable with the idea of having 'bad' feelings, let me give you a couple of metaphors.  If you try to escape insanity without using your particular energy source, it will be like trying to escape Alcatraz using a file, or a rope, or a ladder, or bed sheets, or some other idea that never worked for anyone escaping Alcatraz.  If you do use it, it  will be like getting out of Alcatraz using an Apache helicopter that blows up all the guard towers,  lands in the middle of the prison yard to pick you up,  and whisks you safely to your Napa Valley villa in about 15 minutes. Or think of yourself as being  trapped in a Gringotts-type dungeon where you are cornered by a powerful, terrifying dragon (Harry Potter reference here) - which is pretty much the truth for you anyway.  The clever way to escape is to jump on the back of the dragon and let it fly you out of there.  So  just think of yourself as riding the dragon for a while just so you can escape.  Totally clever of you.   If you decide not to use it, it will be more like trying to tunnel through a concrete wall in your cell with a tiny pick for the next few decades (Shawshank Redemption reference here).   I like the dragon image better than the helicopter, so I'm going to use it for the rest of the chapter.

OK, let's find your dragon.  

For this exercise let's think of everyone as being somewhere between sane and insane, and slightly exaggerate the effects of sanity so we can get into the spirit of things.  Think of everyone on Earth as being on a sanity scale from 1 to 100 percent.  Only a score of 100 would make you perfectly sane.  And no one on Earth is perfectly sane.  But sanity is an extremely powerful state; being the only perfectly sane person would make you the most powerful person on the planet since you could influence everyone else to do what you want.   Think of it, you could literally do anything you wanted if you were the one person on Earth who was perfectly sane.  No one could stop you.  You could make your most base desire come true.  What is it?  Think of the following statements.  Which statement has the most powerful (good or bad) effect on you?  Say them out loud to test.

1 -Being 100% sane will make my anger perfectly righteous.

2 -Being 100%  sane will give me the most wisdom, courage, and abilities for helping others of anyone in the world.

3- Being 100% sane will mean that lying will always make me supremely successful.

4- Being 100%  sane will make the true love I lost leave their spouse for me and we will spend eternity together.

5 -Being 100% sane will make me the richest person on Earth.

6 -Being 100% sane will make me perfectly safe, without worries, for the rest of my life.

7 -Being 100% sane will just let me just enjoy eating, drinking, and partying as much as I want for the rest of my life.

8 -Being 100% sane will give me ultimate power (sexual or otherwise) over anyone I want, anytime I want.

9- Being 100% sane will mean I will be perfectly taken care of for the rest of my life.

Whether it filled you with feelings of desire, or feelings of power, or feelings of guilt, or feelings of shame, it doesn't matter. We are just looking for the most powerful or triggering statement for you.  We are not looking for your only source of energy; all of them are potential energy sources for you and several will be particularly powerful.   But there will be one which stands above the rest as your strongest - this is your root source.  Which one do you really, really want to go back and repeat?  Or which one do you never, ever want to repeat?   Now you know your dragon:

1-Anger (can be literally feeling rage and bitterness, or more generally having feelings of resentment or righteousness)

2- Pride (can be literally feeling better than others, or more generally the feeling that you are always a help to others, while you don't want or need help yourself.)

3-Deceit (can be literally lying, or more generally a feeling you show a false persona to people.)

4-Envy (can be literally romantic jealousy, or more generally a desire to have what others have)

5-Greed (can be literally the desire for money, or more generally a desire for your own space, time, and empowerment)

6-Fear (can literally be feeling terror or anxiety, or more generally a desire for safety and security)

7-Gluttony (can be literally the desire for lots of luxurious food and drink, or more generally the desire to have all of life just feel like one big party)

8-Lust (can be literally shameless sexuality, or more generally the desire to have power and control over others)

9-Sloth (can be literally laziness, or more generally the desire to have others take care of you)

Now we see another reason why it was so much easier for traditional peoples, like in an African village,  to move out of insanity.  Before modern religions, who would think to feel bad, or guilty, or shameful about any of these things?  People would have only worried about their actual actions in the world and the effect on others.

Still troubled?  Don't think this is "what Jesus would do"?  Think again.  Just remember Jesus cursing the fig tree (anger), or whipping the money changers and overturning their tables (lust - the power kind),  sitting in the desert doing nothing for 40 days (sloth),  asking God why He had forsaken him (fear),  telling a woman that just because she touched his cloak she was healed (pride),   turning water into wine so the party could go on (gluttony),  telling parables where the man who saved the most or made the most got the 'heavenly' reward (greed), telling a rich man it was easier for a camel to go through the eye of a  needle than for a rich man to go to heaven and then walking it back once the man had left (deceit).  OK, I couldn't think of an 'envy' one, but the Bible and preachers often describe a "jealous God" so I think I'm covered on that one even better.  You might be saying, "Yeah, but Jesus was angry in a GOOD way and God is jealous in a GOOD way" - well then you understand precisely.  That is exactly what I am getting at here. You can access your emotion of internal resistance in a GOOD way - where GOOD is measured by its effects on your life and the life of people around you, not measured by how angelic it feels.

OK, I admit that argument might not have worked; you might just be mad at me for using Jesus as an example right now [1].  I'll give you a better churchy example.  There is a church in my city that is very pro-LGBT and puts a lot of time and effort into this type of outreach.  That would seem like a good thing if I just heard about it  (to me anyway).  But they do it in a way that comes across as very annoying when you experience it in person - they just seem so damn smug and arrogant about it, like they are superior to me.   They are getting their energy to do this from pride obviously. But they are suppressing this truth, presumably because it doesn't sit well with them or they feel guilty about it or whatever, and thus it comes out in dysfunctional ways.  If they just hung up a banner in the church that proclaimed "We are proud to support the LGBT community" then it would be out in the open in a nice way and the result would be they wouldn't act annoying anymore.

I'm sure some people are worried about being judged by God for their thoughts, or some other form of thought police.  But these aren't thoughts, they are feelings.  And the idea that you can use willpower against your feelings to make yourself pure seems far-fetched to me.   You will always have this energy inside you, no matter what.  I say might as well use it for good in the world.

So, if you are still worried about 'good' and 'bad' just think of this as the only real way of being good in the real world outside your head.  Before, when you denied and suppressed your energy of internal resistance,  it came out in dysfunctional ways - not only in ways that traditionally have been described as 'sin' and general dysfunctional behaviour [2,3], but in ways that affect your own mental health [4],  and physical health [5].  But now, with this energy of internal resistance right there in your conscious mind, you will be able to channel it using your thinking into doing things that you feel good about.

If you still feel bad ... just give yourself permission to use this for now and plan to work on becoming an I-feel-pure-as-the-driven-snow person when you are sane. 

A "scientific" test for your dragon root energy:

If you have only narrowed it down to two or three and you are not sure which is really yours,  think about the following hypothetical days.  Or even try them out for a very good scientific experiment.  Which will you enjoy immensely? Or which would you never, ever do in a million years?  Again we are looking for the strongest reaction, either good or bad.

Angry day) Create an anonymous internet account and send out angry 'troll' messages all day long on your favorite subject that makes you angry.

Pride day) Go help unfortunate people for a day - volunteer your time at a homeless shelter and be super extra nice to them and have bag of Oreo cookies with you so you can pass them out.

Deceit day) Spend the day setting up a completely false Facebook account (with your picture) and list complete bullshit about yourself - create a totally fake persona.  Go somewhere in public where you can talk to people, but no one knows you, and strike up a conversation where you tell someone all this pretend stuff about yourself.

Envy day)  In the morning have coffee with an ex who is no longer single.  Then take one of your friends out in the afternoon and have 'just coffee' at the fanciest restaurant in town,  go visit a luxury-car dealership and test drive something you can't possibly afford, and finally spend the evening in the lobby of the fanciest hotel in town watching rich people.

Greed day) Go buy lottery tickets, and make a list of things you are going to do/buy if you win.   Take out some cash from your bank account and put it on a table where you can see it all day - or even roll around in it a bit.     Calculate what your retirement savings will be if you delay your retirement until age 75.

Fear day) Invite someone you know who has small children over for a visit, and spend the day child-proofing your house in preparation.

Gluttony day)  Spend the day with a friend or few eating rich foods, savouring chocolate cake, drinking wine, and the like.

Lust day)  Go somewhere in public where you can check out attractive people, read a lusty book like 50 Shades or hopefully something better, watch some porn, and finish with a spectacular masturbation session where you fantasize you are dominating someone and they want to be your slave.

Sloth day) Lie in bed all day.  

If you are reading this book before you have done Steps 1,2, and 3 then you will have to re-do this 'dragon test' again before you do Steps 4, 5, and 6.  It's possible that you might feel another dragon energy source as you move from your false external self to feeling more like your true self.  Only when you have done Steps 1,2, and 3 will you be in a better position to tell how your true self feels about these things and what your true self's dragon is (but you may have tapped into this originally).  The Enneagram personality theory describes these as root energies or passions [6-10]. It also describes why your root energy might change as you find your true self in the idea of a "direction of integration."  So if you like you can do an online Enneagram test, and then do some readings on the different personalities you scored high on to figure out which personality you are, one of the types 1 through 9.  I have listed the root energies from types 1 through 9 in order in this chapter according to the personality types, so you will know your root energy if you have correctly figured out your type.  For sane people, they start to take on the higher qualities of the type in their "direction of integration" as they become healthier.  For insane people, they will literally pop into that personality type when they become sane.  The root energy of the personality type in your "direction of integration" will be the one you have to tap into after you have completed Steps 1,2, and 3 as that  is the type of your true self.  Reading about your "direction of integration" could also give you a good idea of what your true self is actually like and help in Step 1 from Chapter 1.  The only problem with the Enneagram is that you may feel like you relate well to more than one type, so it is not the perfect method for trying to figure out your root energy.

Once you have decided which energetic dragon you have in you in particular, you can start practicing to follow through on your unconscious brain's escape plan.   You need both motivation and energy to escape.  Your motivation comes from your intentions and ideas of what you would like to be like and what you would like to accomplish in the world,  while your energy will come from your dragon.  We have to practice getting motivation and energy in sync and accomplishing the exact same thing in the outside world.  So the idea is to start practicing doing things in life by both feeling your dragon energy and thinking your pure motivation at the same time.  You will feel like one of those "superheroes with a dark side" that you see in some movies.  

In the previous chapter I talked about motivations you have for yourself and for others based on the Enneagram.  If you have empowering motivations, then think how you want to empower people while using your dragon for energy; think of yourself as a dragon with a heart of gold.    Let's just throw a bunch of funny, extreme examples out there so you can get thinking along those lines using empowering motivations first.  And if you are still in doubt about what type of dragon you have, you will just have to do these examples over again using different dragons until you find the one that makes you feel the most powerful and gives you the most energy in the situation.    

These example are just about getting you thinking about how you can always line up your dragon energy and your purest motivation.  

Think of yourself as an empowering person?

These examples are for those who think of themselves as empowering only:

Anger)

Write your local politician an email about a political issue you feel strongly about, with the feeling that you want to express your anger but choosing your words carefully while thinking that this could make the world a better place.

Pride)

Randomly buy the person behind you in line at the coffee shop their coffee just to enjoy a  feeling of superiority,  but while thinking that the person is getting a benefit and it is actually a nice "pay it forward" thing to do.

Deceit)

Give someone at work a compliment they don't deserve and you don't actually think about them so you can have fun lying and pretending you are a nicer person than you actually are, but choosing your words carefully while thinking that the person will actually enjoy the compliment and it might make their day.

Envy)  

Go hang out with the friend whose partner you like the most out of jealousy they have found someone so amazing, but while thinking about those qualities you would like in your next partner so you have the knowledge you are using that visit to try to improve your life.

Greed)

Go buy a piggy bank. Every time you go to put money in it, take a moment to try to estimate how much might be in there by now,  and  enjoy some fantasies of what you are planning to buy with it when you finally smash it open.  Make sure the thing you are planning to buy will benefit everyone in your family, so you have the knowledge that everyone is going to appreciate this savings effort and purchase.

Fear)  Go to work and do your job perfectly while feeling some anxiety about how easy it would be to get layed-off or fired, and how much you need this job for your financial security.    But think about how you are benefiting the company and your co-workers with your hard work.

Gluttony)

Take your best friend to the very fanciest coffee shop around and buy you and them the coffee/tea that you love and a delicious little treat, purely for the feeling of experiencing gluttony, but  while thinking your friend is going to appreciate this and it will help your friendship.

Lust)

Have coffee with your opposite-sex friend who you have (at least once) fantasized about. Imagine yourself feeling lust for them while you talk,  but while thinking that they just enjoy having a conversation with you.

Sloth)

Do a half-assed job of something unimportant at work with the feeling that you don't want to do it well in order to save your energy,  but while thinking that it is important to prioritize so you are probably doing the right thing anyway.

Think of yourself as manipulative and you are totally fine with that?

Now, some of you think of yourselves as manipulative.  If you actually like that aspect about yourself, and feel no guilt or shame around it, then you can do the exact same kind of thing as above but with manipulative motivations.   Think of the motivations as your path to manipulating others at will so you become the most powerful dragon in the world.   The following example are for those who  think of themselves as manipulative and don't mind (or even like) that about themselves only:

Anger)

Write your local politician an email about a political issue you feel strongly about, with the feeling that you want to express your anger but choosing your words carefully while thinking to gain manipulative influence over the politician.

Pride)

Randomly buy the person behind you in line at the coffee shop their coffee just to enjoy a  feeling of superiority,  but while thinking  that you are gaining manipulative influence over this person.

Deceit)

Give someone at work a compliment they don't deserve and you don't actually think about them so you can have fun lying and pretending you are a nicer person than you actually are, but choosing your words carefully while thinking that you are gaining manipulative influence over them.

Envy)

Go hang out with the friend whose partner you like the most out of jealousy they have found someone so amazing, but while thinking you have gained an advantage in manipulating your next romantic partner.

Greed)

Go buy a piggy bank. Every time you go to put money in it, take a moment to try to estimate how much might be in there by now,  and  enjoy some fantasies of what you are planning to buy with it when you finally smash it open.  Make sure the thing you are planning gain manipulative influence over your family,

Fear)  Go to work and do your job perfectly while feeling some anxiety about how easy it would be to get layed-off or fired, and how much you need this job for your financial security.    But think about how you are gaining manipulative advantage with your boss by being such a loyal and hard worker.

Gluttony)

Take your best friend to the very fanciest coffee shop around and buy you and them the coffee/tea that you love and a delicious little treat, purely for the feeling of experiencing gluttony, but while thinking you are gaining manipulative influence over them.

Lust)

Have coffee with your opposite-sex friend who you have (at least once) fantasized about. Imagine yourself feeling lust for them while you talk,  but while thinking you are gaining manipulative advantage over them.

Sloth)

Do a half-assed job of something unimportant at work with the feeling that you don't want to do it in order to save your energy,   but while that you are gaining manipulative influence over your boss by telling them how you prioritized and created efficiency today.

Think of yourself as manipulative but don't like that?


If you think of yourself as a manipulative person and you feel guilt or shame about this aspect of your thinking because you feel it isn't 'good' and you would like to be 'good', then the idea of adding on extra energy on top of that which doesn't feel 'good' either may be quite distasteful to you to say the least.   For you, we are going to have to go directly to your purest motivations for doing 'good' in the world.  For everyone, the pure motivation should go along side-by-side with the desire to empower or manipulate; they are not contradictory at all.    Here are some examples just to get you thinking about how you can always line up your dragon energy and your purest motivation that will work for everyone:

Anger)

Write your local politician an email about a political issue you feel strongly about, with the feeling that you want to express your anger but choosing your words carefully to encourage government to do the right thing and thus reform society.

Pride)

Randomly buy the person behind you in line at the coffee shop their coffee just to enjoy a feeling of superiority,  but while thinking you truly want to help the person by giving them a good start to their day and thinking you want to help society by creating a "pay it forward" attitude.

Deceit)

Give someone at work a compliment they don't deserve and you don't actually think about them so you can have fun lying and pretending you are a nicer person than you actually are, but choosing your words carefullly while thinking it will motivate them to accomplish more that day.

Envy)

Go hang out with the friend whose partner you like the most out of jealousy they have found someone so amazing, but while thinking that they have problems too and you will spend your time listening to their problems and emotions in an effort to provide healing.

Greed)

Go buy a piggy bank. Every time you go to put money in it, take a moment to try to estimate how much might be in there by now,  and  enjoy some fantasies of what you are planning to buy with it when you finally smash it open.  Make sure the thing you are planning to buy will benefit everyone in your family so that you think of yourself as creating a happy bubble for your family. 

Gluttony)

Take your best friend to the very fanciest coffee shop around and buy you and them the coffee/tea that you love and a delicious little treat, purely for the feeling of experiencing gluttony, but while having a conversation about how the world can be improved and what a perfect world would look like.

Fear) 

Go to work and do your job perfectly while feeling some anxiety about how easy it would be to get layed off or fired, and how much you need this job for your financial security.    But think about how you are making the world a more secure place for you and your family, and making your company more a more secure place by having a competent worker.

Lust)

Have coffee with your opposite-sex friend who you have (at least once) fantasized about. Imagine yourself feeling lust for them while you talk,  but while encouraging them to talk about an unjust situation they have faced and offering to draft them a letter of accountability to the person who did it to them.

Sloth)

Do a half-assed job of something unimportant at work with the feeling that you don't want to do it well in order to save energy, but while thinking that you will spend the extra time you saved chatting with a co-worker who you know is still smarting (or gloating) after some confrontation and smoothing over the situation.

Concerns about how people see you:

At this point you may be thinking "Oh my God, if I do that people will see all my horrible secrets that I never want anyone to know."  But in reality the opposite occurs.  It is when you are trying to suppress the secret lust you have for your friend that you end up making them feel creeped out (or lustful in return).  When you suppress it then your unconscious usually manages expresses to it unbeknownst to you (in your tone of voice, in your mannerisms, in your choice of words, in your Freudian slips, etc.). When you practice awareness of it in your conscious brain, it won't end up affecting your behavior in ways you don't know about.  So even though you will feel like the dragon when you are doing these things like this,  people will actually experience you as less creepy, or less angry, or less fearful, or less whatever than before.  So don't worry about it; you will never get caught.  Your secret dragon hides easily and no one will know.

Of course, you may choose to show your emotion anytime you like as well - like my Jesus examples.  Showing emotion is not a bad thing, and totally appropriate in many situations.

It helps to think of doing this practice as maximizing your enjoyment out of every situation. You experience maximum pleasure each time (which no one will ever suspect) and actually accomplish what you want to in the world at the same time.  It's the best of both worlds.  What could be better?

Anyway, this is how sane people live. They don't do it deliberately, so it isn't nearly as obvious to them and they are not really too aware of it or consider it a big deal.  They don't usually tell anyone about, so it isn't obvious just by talking to people and reading and watching TV.  It remains more of a societal secret that everyone is kind of embarrassed by, so they don't mention it much.  Why do you think  people love confessing their sins so much and asking for forgiveness?  With insanity you may be out of the loop.  You might be similar to a small child being out of the loop on sex, who will be surprised when they leave childhood and find out the 'dirty' things everyone has been up to!  When you escape insanity this will just be a natural way of living and you won't notice it much at all, other than as a feeling of being human like everyone else.    

Try to practice this as much possible.  We have to get your motivation and energy working on the same wavelength to accomplish your escape plan.  During your final escape drama these two will have to be in sync perfectly, and this is what will finally glue the parts of your brain back together again.

from “How to Escape Insanity” by Chris Macnab, copyright 2018

On to Reader Affirmations

[1] I taught Sunday School for 20 years and I love Jesus.   Jesus - willing to take any insult, abuse, torture, or horrible death in order to set people free.  The rest of us - willing to set people free, unless that would make us feel uncomfortable.

Suppressing emotions is what makes you 'sin'.

[2] "The only way most people know of to make such emotions go away is to suppress them, in other words, to block them from our awareness. That can prove difficult to do, but even when we succeed, the suppressed emotion is likely to have negative psychological and physiological effects. We may not be consciously aware of the emotion, but it is still affecting both our behavior and our body.. " http://www.mortylefkoe.com/suppressing-emotions/
[3] " When we attempt to suppress or control our emotions rather than experience and work with them, they contribute significantly to our distress and maladaptive behaviors. ... Allowing ourselves to fully experience our feelings can help us sort out what we really want and think, and how we can make our behavior consistent with those desires. Feeling our emotions is very different from allowing them to rule our behavior. When we feel even our most unacceptable-seeming feelings in a safe and healthy forum, we’re actually less likely to act on them in destructive ways. It’s possible to feel hurt without acting victimized and to feel anger without lashing out. It’s possible to feel fear without going into hiding and to feel heartbreak without breaking in two." www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/compassion-matters/201601/should-you-feel-or-flee-your-emotions
[4] "suppressing our emotions where they need to be expressed causes us to dump them elsewhere on innocent people if we are not careful. But that’s not all ... If we keep on suppressing our negative emotions they get buried in our subconscious mind which often results in mood swings, unexplained sadness, and mild depression. If in the future whenever we face any problem, we won’t just feel bad because of the current problem but also because of these suppressed emotions that we are holding on to." www.psychmechanics.com/2014/08/effects-of-suppressing-your-emotions.html
[5] "One study conducted by psychologists from Harvard School of Public Health and the University of Rochester found that suppressing emotions may increase the risk of dying from heart disease and certain forms of cancer. This confirms earlier studies that have linked negative emotions like anger, anxiety, and depression to the development of heart disease." www.huffingtonpost.ca/timi-gustafson/bottling-up-negative-emotions_b_5056433.html

Your passion

[6] "The Enneagram: A Christian Perspective" by Richard Rohr and Andreas Ebert, The Crossroad Publishing Company, 2006.
[7] "The fundamental premise of the Enneagram is that each of us have one dominant (not exclusive) energy that drives us i everything we do. This dominant energy is our greatest gift ... this energy, like a prevailing wind that bends a tree permanently, sculpts our inner terrain and shapes our entire life." www.enneagramcentral.com/
[8] "If you do not like the word 'sin' then use the word 'passion.' It is these nine passions or sins that rule the personality types and must be brought under control through the consciousness of confrontation and acceptance." www.lessons4living.com/enneagram_of_sin.htm
[9] "Our Enneagram passions or sins come from the suffering and agitation caused by the perception that we've been torn from the womb of Love." studentcounseling.ptsem.edu/wp-content/uploads/2015/01/All20Nine20Types.pdf
[10] "it was embraced by early Christian mystics known as the Desert Fathers who focused on studying the loss of the Divine Forms in ego consciousness. The particular ways in which these Divine forms became distorted came to be known as the Seven Deadly Sins: anger, pride, envy, avarice, gluttony, lust, and sloth. How the original nine forms, in the course of their travels from Greece to Egypt over the course of a century, became reduced to seven deadly sins remains a mystery." www.enneagraminstitute.com/the-traditional-enneagram/
Agree or disagree?
Agree or disagree?
Chapter Six

At this point you might like to do a little doodle while thinking about the action you would like to carry out with your current emotion:

Choose Colour
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"How to Escape Insanity" health workers I almost forgot, are you working with the mentally ill? Those "Being 100% sane will make me..." phrases probably didn't help you too much. Here are some phrases to assist you in finding your own dragon. Which is the most repulsive for you?


1) Mentally ill people are not good at following my exhaustive lists of instructions I post on the fridge, and I am getting angry!


2) I can help the mentally ill a lot because of my truly wonderful gifts with helping special people like them in this world, but don't worry about giving anything back to me, all you special people, I already have everything I need myself:) :) :) Loves and kisses you all...


3) I will never, ever, in a million years tell the mentally ill people with whom I am working any personal information about myself, because that is the absolute minimum standard of professionalism when dealing with these people - along with making sure you have a straight tie (or skirt) and no facial expressions of any kind, of course.


4) I will always tell a mentally ill person their very intense relationship they have with someone is unhealthy for them, and they should tell me all the very intimate details of how they got that relationship and what it is like so I can definitely not have any feelings whatsoever about how I would like a relationship like that when I talk to them.


5) I will first read about everything there is to know about mental illness over the course of 20-30 years before I say anything at all, and once I know everything I will give them an opinion on what might help them but emphasize that they should think about it themselves for the most part.


6) I am terrified a mentally ill person is going to chop my head off eventually, so I will make sure we have safe procedures in place to deal with these people which will ideally involve calling the police pretty much right away. I am terrified someone is going to tell something to a mentally ill person to set them off, so I will ensure they are protected from information - I really like the idea of becoming a mental-illness discussion board moderator!


7) These mentally ill people are wrecking my fun! I don't want to deal with their pain all day long. Bummer. Give them some 'fun' meds, will you?


8) I will help the mentally ill by making sure they take their meds and keep all their appointments, while I constantly check in on them and supervise them as much as I can and generally tell them what to do a lot. But mostly I will daydream about how we treated them in the good old days of Victorian England.


9) Mentally ill people are so needy; they are exhausting! I can't deal with these people. Let's give them some 'sleeping' meds, OK?

(If you work with the mentally ill and you don’t act like a genuine human being with them, then all you are doing is confusing them, not helping them.)

from “How to Escape Insanity” by Chris Macnab, copyright 2018

Ok, now that everyone who doesn’t worry about insanity has been offended and left, I have a comment for everyone else. Have you read this far and still find yourself mad at me for being arrogant, creating theories without a degree, and bossing you around? Well, I'm sorry I didn’t make the theme of the book more clear to this point, so here it is:

“Just do what you need to get out of there. You know how to do it and you can trust yourself.”

The road to insanity and back in engineering diagrams